Okay… last week: I cut back on the amount of food I shove into my face. Hurray! I need to eat like I’m a 5 foot person instead of eating as big as my ego. To much food gets me in a spot I don’t want to be in anymore. I was pretty good at exercising! I could have done better but there are too many things that were happening during the week for me to care.

So today is Wednesday, this is the first day with the added help from GNC. I also have my second meeting with the Aveda Institution about furthering my education in Esthiology and Massage therapy. I’ve realized this month that I need to get a career that allows me to make my own schedule so I can continue my education until the day I die. No matter what, I will always be in school because I shouldn’t limit myself to one path. I have one life and my life should be filled with stressless jobs that allow me to do what I want. I want to own a business, teach others and a path in beauty is truly the core of me? Lol, I love fashion, make up and being a go to girl.

Anyway… I still haven’t weighed myself but my driver’s license says I’m at 120. I lost my info my body fat but my goal is at 17%. I’ll get the correct info in July.

So heres today and all future dates of blogging.

Okay… so here is goes: GNC has meal plans with protein shakes and pills to help you be the best you can be with exercising and crap. Is this my start to the new me? No, wait… no more lying. Yes this is a start to become who I really want to be. Doing this plan is my way of not allowing outside forces to ruin what I want to look like. My goal, the real goal, be it positive or whatever is to stop staring at other girls and hating them for being motivated to push it. I will be that girl who will learn to eat correctly and not over do it when I’m stressed, bored or angry.

The feeling of being angry is what makes me want to over eat. Work… You do this to me. The dumb wankers at work drive me insane, to the point where I have to stuff something in my mouth or I’ll flip. Oh joy the desk brings. I’ll quit you soon. Just watch me.

Back on track. It is my duty to write to you (whomever you might be, dark empty internet) to share my anger about dieting. Oh joy.

Monday here I come!

I’m really starting to hate his computer games and the amount of time that is wasted on them when other things need to get done. If games didn’t make him lazy, stay in his underwear all day, ruin his credit score and prehaps didn’t bring a pond an extreme amount of boredness for me, then maybe I would be okay with him playing as often as he does. Boo you Jason and your need to play these games way too often. Boo you and your nerdness. What once was somewhat cute is only a nuisance to me. I want to beat you with your monitor.

Fuck you. angry

Side note: I am on a mad search for the prefect outfit for Valentine’s Day and I hope through my crazy search through fashion week, I too hope to find inspiration for that certain outfit. Oh how I love him dearly.

I hate changing birth control, it always brings out the worst in me.

It’s nice to live in a fantasy world where I can follow ‘privileged teenagers’ attending an elite private school in New York City? Yeah, right.  These ‘privileged teenagers’ drink all the time, party and cause a great amount of pain onto others who are lame in their eyes. Shambam! love it? Yes.

After watching the 4th episode of the second season, I knew I had to ask myself the age-old question: Which character would I rather be?

Chuck Bass – Duh!

Okay, let’s go down the list of all the other lame characters.
Blair or ‘Queen Bee’: Yes she is beautiful, smart, knows how to get the ultimum revenge on whomever she wants and lets not forget to state the obvious: rich. Oh she has a mom who cares? lol who designs okay looking clothes and a fabulous gay father who lives in France. Yes, all nice and dandy but! Blair’s heart lies to her time and time again. It makes her foolish and lose control of her raining crown. In the end, I won’t want to be her.
Serena or ‘It girl”: Drop dead gorgeous, smart? and fantastic sense of style. If I could be any blonde, I would be her but in the end, in the show I won’t want to be her. Serena has no respect for telling the truth, she cares way too much about other people’s feeling to allow herself to tell the truth. It holds her back and causes her to fail. Plus, she has too many lame secrets.
Nate: That kid has one messed up family life that I don’t ever want to bother with. I would be losing my hair if I had to deal with his passive aggressive mother of his and don’t get me started on his deadbeat father that is the most worthless criminal on the show. Blah.
Dan: One: no money, two: way too judgmental and three: can’t go with the flow. Lame. Handsome, yes but looks alone won’t get you far in the big apple.
Jenny or ‘Little J’: Too skinny. Not rich and… too young.
Vanessa: Yes she is the only girl on the show that is close to my skin color but she has too much riding against her. Her sense of style is too out there for me and does she even go to school? I only see her working and being lame. I do enjoy that she isn’t scared of the others but in the end she needs to learn to trust them? lol.
Chuck: ChaChing rich, yes his clothing choices are a bit out there at times but it works for him, he knows how to get what he wants and he is great with the ladies. He knows who he is and doesn’t apologize for it. At times a creeper but so am I at times. It keeps people on their toes. There are times he seems like he doesn’t care but deep down he is a softy.

This won’t be the last time you will here about Gossip Girl from me.

I finally have my blackberry set up correctly and… it has sent the word poop to myself over 10 time. Oh how I do enjoy the lameness I think of. I have nothing else to talk about right now. I thought I did but nope.

I’ll be back.